I wanna a vacation ... From life

I would like to just pack my bags and leave. Go anywhere but here. I need a vacation from life. But I also know that I can't do this so I am stuck in St. Louis trying to figure out what I want to do.
work is my love/hate relationship there are times when I love being there and then there are times when I would rather be anywhere but there. I have worked my ass off for this job and I really am starting to question myself again as if it is really worth it. My school work is suffering because of the job as I have missed so many classes. And the promise of full-time in January is a no-go. I wanna write or take pictures but I am unable to find a job to do such this. Taking pictures on the weekends is great but that is what I would like to consider my social time as it is the only time I ever get out anymore.
I am so stressed out and at times I feel as if I am living in someone else's life. So I can in my vacation ticket ...yet?